I don’t know how to start this post. I started this blog because I wanted to share my fashion sense (If I have any?) but I have found myself using the blog as a journal of some sort. I wanted to write about how I felt yesterday. I feel like I’m always bouncing from place to place, from work to school, from school to home, from home to meet friends, from friends to boyfriend, from boyfriend to sister, from sister to blog… I’m always moving around… in my car. I feel like I spend most of my days in a car, on the highway. I have plans, I have goals I want to achieve so I just go, go, go and take the people that want to “go” with me. I love this; I know that the people in my life are there because they love me because they put up with me every single day. I don’t show it too much but I stress, a lot. I worry too much, I worry about my family, my friends, my love, my school, my work. I worry about them all the time; I always want to give 100% to everything I do and maybe that’s my problem. I believe the reason I’m able to keep my friends and my family and my job by my side is because I’m never satisfied and I always want more; but, why do I spend so much time satisfying others and not myself? I don’t know. I mean, I feel bad about writing this because it looks like I’m complaining but that’s the least I want to do; I’m actually very grateful for everyone in my life. I just don’t know when was the last time I did something for myself. When was the last time I read a book, played volleyball, watched a chic-flick, worked out for real, went to get a manicure? I just can’t remember. Yes, in life we have to make sacrifices and time is the thing we sacrifice most of but sometimes it just feels like too much. And yes, what’s the hurry? I’m very young and I have a lifetime to achieve everything I want to but wouldn’t that be… too expected?
Again, for all of my friends reading this, I love you all I’m not trying to complain I’m just spinning in a thousand directions so, I’ll just leave you all with this… I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling 22.
Skinnies are from my store, Plaid button down I found at Ross and my shoes are Coach. Xo, Belen